Wednesday, September 23, 2009
23 Sept
my abstinence plan failed miserably .
everyday i will use the comp for at least an hour .
sigh . totally fucked .
studying has never been much of a chore till now .
all i feel is regret after every paper .
regret for not preparing , regret for not being sharp during the paper etc
-Brick walls are there to show how dedicated you are-
i dont think im dedicated enough .
the allure of the comp is too much .
can't blame me .
i really wish my someone can burn this hard-disk,
-maybe my mom-
and magically make it reappear after my A's
i want my subjects to get As,
but i dont think i want it bad enough
and my pimples are popping all over .
fuck it . i feel screwed all over .
been down with flu at a bad time too .
triple fuck .
i just want this part of my life to be over ASAP
ive never been so mindful abt my results ever .
elitism is starting to get the better of me .
sighz .
i want to regain my freedom ~
i want to swim ~
i want to bodybuild ~
i want to play games ~
i want to watch my shows ~
i want to dance ~
i want to catch up with my friends ~
i want to meet up with new friends ~
i want to learn driving ~
i want to learn roller skating ~
i want to learn ice skating ~
i want to read my mangas ~
i want to buy more hip clothes ~
I fucking want my As.
everyday i will use the comp for at least an hour .
sigh . totally fucked .
studying has never been much of a chore till now .
all i feel is regret after every paper .
regret for not preparing , regret for not being sharp during the paper etc
-Brick walls are there to show how dedicated you are-
i dont think im dedicated enough .
the allure of the comp is too much .
can't blame me .
i really wish my someone can burn this hard-disk,
-maybe my mom-
and magically make it reappear after my A's
i want my subjects to get As,
but i dont think i want it bad enough
and my pimples are popping all over .
fuck it . i feel screwed all over .
been down with flu at a bad time too .
triple fuck .
i just want this part of my life to be over ASAP
ive never been so mindful abt my results ever .
elitism is starting to get the better of me .
sighz .
i want to regain my freedom ~
i want to swim ~
i want to bodybuild ~
i want to play games ~
i want to watch my shows ~
i want to dance ~
i want to catch up with my friends ~
i want to meet up with new friends ~
i want to learn driving ~
i want to learn roller skating ~
i want to learn ice skating ~
i want to read my mangas ~
i want to buy more hip clothes ~
I fucking want my As.
i want you back at 8:00 AM
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