Monday, December 1, 2008
1 Dec
time really flies .
im getting emo dese few days
been doing nth much these holidays
loneliness , boredom and wavering determination
accompanied me through the last one month .
friends are all busy ,
travelling overseas .
~Swim matters~
im getting the thought that no one in the team
gives a damn about swim finals anymore .
cant blame em . but seriously ,
at our standard , do they seriously think we can make the mark ?
broken promises , i hate that .
where's all the "everyday training" ?
where's all the "scouting for our J1 batch" ?
i cant complain too much either . im nt going to that extent too .
but im gonna change myself soon . i hope .
the joy that i feel during training ,
i dun think anyone has it .
sure i do complain abt me being tired ,
but i do love swimming , more than anything .
"The water is my sky" - a quote from somewhere i heard ,
is what i feel when i do my swims .
training is gonna stop in 1 week's time .
im darn sure , i can cancel that swim finals goal in my wishlist now
its not gonna come true anymore .
Dec
1mth left to sch reopening ,
gotta catch up on my work .
S for econs definitely wont do .
everything i had loved , is breaking apart once again .
but i will fix it . i swear i will do my best .
bdae's coming but i guess i will spend it alone again .
bah , who cares . its been that way the past few years ,
im numb alrdy . but im still lookin forward to that day ,
cuz perhaps, i could ask a few meetups with online frens .
i dunno . i realli dislike the group of friends i have since i entered college .
class ? humph , i and them are completely of different worlds i feel ,
to them , im juz weird and unsociable .
well its back to the same thing as always -
study and swim ,
its all my life needs right now .
though im still waiting for tat "her" to appear .
waiting . . .
"One day, a boy saw a dream,
twirling , twirling , flying , flying ,
so happy in its freedom ,
he thought he was a butterfly.
But when he opened his eyes ,
the boy was no butterfly ,
but only a mere human .
then he thought,
'did i just see a dream where i was a butterfly,
or is this a dream as well?
maybe i'm but a dream ,
seen by the butterfly .
Even if it is a dream,
if you have beliefs,
wishes, things you love,
those will become reality."
how true IS this ?
Tag Replies:
Agnes:
1)heh then i should post more more more then we can spam each other's tag HAHA xD
2) no lo ~ olympic sports also count by points de ma , the bigger the number the more points then decide who is first . so , i win xD
3) time need to find one meh ? o.o
4) ok lo , dun mind hehe =D *hugggggggggles* xD
5) eeeeeee dun 叔叔 leh , like some perv eh lol
6) sadist ? o.o why ?
where?
where is she ?
RadicalLove
im getting emo dese few days
been doing nth much these holidays
loneliness , boredom and wavering determination
accompanied me through the last one month .
friends are all busy ,
travelling overseas .
~Swim matters~
im getting the thought that no one in the team
gives a damn about swim finals anymore .
cant blame em . but seriously ,
at our standard , do they seriously think we can make the mark ?
broken promises , i hate that .
where's all the "everyday training" ?
where's all the "scouting for our J1 batch" ?
i cant complain too much either . im nt going to that extent too .
but im gonna change myself soon . i hope .
the joy that i feel during training ,
i dun think anyone has it .
sure i do complain abt me being tired ,
but i do love swimming , more than anything .
"The water is my sky" - a quote from somewhere i heard ,
is what i feel when i do my swims .
training is gonna stop in 1 week's time .
im darn sure , i can cancel that swim finals goal in my wishlist now
its not gonna come true anymore .
Dec
1mth left to sch reopening ,
gotta catch up on my work .
S for econs definitely wont do .
everything i had loved , is breaking apart once again .
but i will fix it . i swear i will do my best .
bdae's coming but i guess i will spend it alone again .
bah , who cares . its been that way the past few years ,
im numb alrdy . but im still lookin forward to that day ,
cuz perhaps, i could ask a few meetups with online frens .
i dunno . i realli dislike the group of friends i have since i entered college .
class ? humph , i and them are completely of different worlds i feel ,
to them , im juz weird and unsociable .
well its back to the same thing as always -
study and swim ,
its all my life needs right now .
though im still waiting for tat "her" to appear .
waiting . . .
"One day, a boy saw a dream,
twirling , twirling , flying , flying ,
so happy in its freedom ,
he thought he was a butterfly.
But when he opened his eyes ,
the boy was no butterfly ,
but only a mere human .
then he thought,
'did i just see a dream where i was a butterfly,
or is this a dream as well?
maybe i'm but a dream ,
seen by the butterfly .
Even if it is a dream,
if you have beliefs,
wishes, things you love,
those will become reality."
how true IS this ?
Tag Replies:
Agnes:
1)heh then i should post more more more then we can spam each other's tag HAHA xD
2) no lo ~ olympic sports also count by points de ma , the bigger the number the more points then decide who is first . so , i win xD
3) time need to find one meh ? o.o
4) ok lo , dun mind hehe =D *hugggggggggles* xD
5) eeeeeee dun 叔叔 leh , like some perv eh lol
6) sadist ? o.o why ?
where?
where is she ?
RadicalLove
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